Since buying this home in May of 2013, we have been taken financially at every turn, every month. The Lord does chastises whom He calls sons and we are gracious that we are being chastised because it is for our own good in that we do not sin in this area again and we have hope because there will be a day when we will be relieved of this burden:
Just the other day my husband informed me that we were able to save $250 this month. I went into town to my doctor’s appointment and I took a part to Home Depot from our leaky faucet in our bathroom shower. Matthew retrofitted a screwdriver in the piece at home so they could still keep the water on while I was in town. When I got home (without the new part as they didn’t have this unique one), Matthew proceeded to put the old part in. It would not work now. So, whenever we turned the water back on, water would pour out of the faucet from the bathroom tub. We had to call a plumber so we could have water again. There went our extra money for the month again.
I walked into the kitchen that evening to turn on the water. There was a little drip I hadn’t seen before. I knew the Lord was allowing these things to happen. He wants us to learn through our sufferings. I went quickly to my husband and shared, “We really need to pray that the Lord will move us soon.” I shared with him about the drip in the kitchen faucet. This was just another thing from the monthly woes since we’ve moved in.
Later that evening, Matthew came into the office to share that he opened the Bible to this. He knew it was the Lord. I knew it was the Lord speaking to us through His beautiful Word. We have hope! I don’t know when it will happen but we have hope! Here it is:
1 Bow down thine ear, O Lord, hear me: for I am poor and needy.
2 Preserve my soul; for I am holy: O thou my God, save thy servant that trusteth in thee.
3 Be merciful unto me, O Lord: for I cry unto thee daily.
4 Rejoice the soul of thy servant: for unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.
5 For thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee.
6 Give ear, O Lord, unto my prayer; and attend to the voice of my supplications.
7 In the day of my trouble I will call upon thee: for thou wilt answer me.
8 Among the gods there is none like unto thee, O Lord; neither are there any works like unto thy works.
I am so happy. My husband now has a fervor to pray without ceasing regarding our departure from here. I have always felt that the Lord wants us to both pray about this home continually like the woman who went to the judge continuously and finally he decided to hear her case. I believe that the Lord wants us to fully know that it was He who sold this home and decided to move us when it does happen, so we can give credit no where else. I remember moving into this home and thinking, “I’m glad we’re not moving again, we would never be able to sell this house.”
Today, my husband drove the garbage up the hill to our big dumpster. The 4 wheel drive went out (Last month we had to purchase new tires for the truck as we kept blowing used ones). We need 4 wheel drive up here. It is icy, snowy, sleet and there are many hills with big drop offs to get to our home. I felt calm when I found out the news. I shared with Matthew that the Lord was allowing these things because He never wants us to forget how it was living here. Thank God, I looked up on Google when the 4 wheel drive goes out, and our truck came up on the top. I found that there are some wires below the door that get caked with grime and often that is the problem. Matthew went down to juggle things around under there and it worked. He had already made an appointment so he still took the truck in to his appointment with the article and they looked under the truck to find 2 inches of grime under there where the wires are. No other problems with the 4 wheel drive and only $37 later….
But, we wonder about next month. My car sits on the top of the hill next to the barn with a bad fuel pump. Every month something turns up that we get by but barely. It is no way for a Christian to live… and to have a luxury home to show for it. We are still in high repentance and daily. We have opened our hand to this house and closed the other fist to being able to take care of daily matters. How we should have the fist closed on the house, having it paid off, and have our other hand open to daily matters and needs.
How we have hope renewed again though because the Lord is so good and ready to forgive. He will not allow us to fall. I do love that verse though it is hard; “Thou He slay me, yet I will trust Him.” I know one day we will drive from this house and we will be in a new season of “showers of blessings” as the Bible says. We will do the right thing and have the opportunity to pay off a home. We’ll be able to help others as led by the Lord. I cannot guess as to when He will move us but I can have hope again that maybe it won’t be too much longer.