Missing Our Babies

It has been a really hard day for me. I miss being able to hold our babies and haven’t been able to hold them both together yet.  Since we don’t have a vehicle large enough to accommodate our entire family, I am unable to see the babies. I cannot drive myself up  yet because I am just too weak and in pain from the surgery to walk the very long walk from the parking lot to the NICU. I hope there’s a way to see them tomorrow as I feel my heart is breaking.   : (

Here is Tabitha. She is the smallest and weighed 3 lbs, 11 ounces. She was not the one in distress in the womb. She was born first though because her head was closest as she was transverse.

Here is her sister Anna. She is the baby who was in distress. She sure doesn’t look like she had any problems now.  : ) She weighed 4 lbs, 15 ounces at birth.  Just a little over a week before birth, they both weighed around 4 lbs in the womb. I believe they were only like 3 ounces apart. They believe they developed Twin to Twin Transfusion right at the end. They are identical but do not look identical due to the weight discrepancy.

Here are Tabitha’s tiny legs.

Tabitha again. Though she looks very uncomfortable, she is very comfortable under the warm lights. They have it very cozy for her. When I held her yesterday and the evening before, she would get so comfortable in my arms that her oxygen level would drop and cause the monitor to beep. Even being so tiny, she was so very comforted by my arms and that is what makes it hard to be apart from them.

Here you can see the difference a pound makes between identical twins. See the picture of Anna below.

Anna looking healthy and ready to come home. I have a feeling she may be home in a week or so.

Tabitha our little, frail one. She is the one that usually has her eyes opened and is alert. While her sister Anna usually just sleeps.  : )

7 thoughts on “Missing Our Babies

  1. I’m so sorry; that must be really hard! I can’t imagine how it must be; it makes me cry, too! I’m praying for you all!
    I agree– they are both so beautiful.

  2. Oh my goodness! First, praise to God for the safe birth of your babies!!!
    I wish I lived nearby, I would come get you and give you a ride.
    I also have GD and started going for 2/week nsts. I had been thinking it was overkill, but not now!!
    I will ask God to heal your heart, and to make the time spent apart fly by. May this time be one of faith and healing for all of you. God bless you and your family.

  3. They are beautiful.
    I cannot imagine how your arms ache to hold them…. you have been in my thoughts & prayers since hearing of their birth on MOMYS. I PRAY you will be able to hold them VERY soon…and that they will grow strong very soon so they can come home and join the WHOLE LOVELY family!!

    God Bless you, and Keep you and may you FEEL HIS COMFORT right now during this time.

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